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well it finally happened, my friends got me to finally check out homestuck....three days later i was finished. LMAO I just couldn't stop reading. And I gotta say it's really good once you get past act 3. Now I'm drawing homestuck, rping homestuck, and have even been convinced to cosplay homestuck.

What character am I dressing up as?
KARKAT VANTAS!

I get to cuss and yell at people! And guess what, people will love me for it! I'd also like to cosplay as John cause I love pairing him up with certain characters. And if I'm lazy I'd go around as Jade, i have long hair and glasses so it works lol.

For those who want to start reading it. BE WARNED! it is seriously fucking long now and can cause some nasty headaches due to time travel, pissed off trolls, and people coming back to life.

Just a fair warning.

I've been sick as of the last day or so, woke up to my kitty meowing at me cause I slept in way too long and she was worried XD She's so cute!!!

Anyway~ I kinda just realized that some of my work is actually getting popular. In less than a week I've gotten over 10 watchers and a bunch of faves XD This makes me happy!

So thank you to all my watchers/readers/veiwers/and any other er's that I can't think of right now.

And now onto talking about my recent works.

Ellie Fenton: I will be updating....eventually. It's not all that favored on this sight but for the few that read them here don't worry I haven't given up I just hit a rough patch.

Proto-Silent Creed: Has been getting many likes, I love how much people are getting into it. I have the second chapter already into the works. Lets just say you yaoi lovers are going to be fans real quick

There is nothing quite like living in a house near a person you are absolutely terrified of. My Older brother frightens me any time he gets slightly upset, even over little things. I never know what is going to set him off or if he's going to go off on me.
I don't doubt he'd use physical harm on me... in fact I know he would if he really wanted too.
Right now I'm too afraid to even look him in the eye. I want him gone, I don't want him in the house, I don't want him anywhere near me.
I've always been slightly afraid of him cause he was loud and harsher than anyone I know. But now I'm scared enough to the point I fear for my physical safety. He can be violent, I know he can. Can he hurt his own blood? I know he can.
And there is nothing I can do about it.

Its sad that I'm disappointed my dad didn't kick him out onto the streets?
That he didn't toss his out the door and tell him not to come back?
He's a 25 year old man, my brother,the father of my beloved nephew....

And I'm afraid of him.

I hate to tell anyone in my life of my true feelings because I do have a very gifted life. I have loving parents, friends, and family. I have a good home and live a healthy life. My parents encourage me to be myself and give me as much as they can and then some. I know my life could be so much worse.
I could be on the streets, in a ditch, have neglectful parents. but I don't... and I feel guilty for ever outwardly complaining about any thing in my life.

So here I sit, in silence. As tears fall down my cheeks and I hold my breath to break my sobs. My door is closed and no one in my home knows my pain.

They have their own troubles, and I don't want to trouble them more with mine.

But do not worry, I will never harm myself to try and ease the emotional pain. I have seen and known many who have done this and I could never take such action to myself.

My only solace.... is my writing.

If you have a gander at my gallery you'll fin some pics of a Soundwave cosplay (WIP) so far only the helmet has been crafted, but I have the materials and time to get some serious work done!

My friend and I have wanted to do some legit Transformers cosplays for a long time and I finally got around to working on it. I am going to make Soundwave, with possible a bit of her help, and together we will make a Skywarp for her XD. She wants to learn how to make things like I do on her own so some of the process I will have some help/a student.

I do my work through Trail and Error. Some times more Error than anything, so I have a hard time just describing how to do some things I've made. I can draw out detailed blueprints for them, but if you don't have my mindset for them it might be a bit confusing. XDD

Words can only depict so much as for as crafting goes, its hands on work that gets the idea set in the brain and the motions in the hands.

Wish us some luck! ^w^
Till all are one.

I'm going to be freaking 20 in a few days. Holy crap lol I feel old. I actually had a 13 yr old kid ask me what controller was on my floor, it was for the nintendo 64 and he had absolutely no clue what it was. I actually planned out a birthday party this year and i have a bunch of friends that plan to go. I'm so excited to be able to hang out with all of them, for some of them it will be a the first time in a long while. Well...here's to being almost 20, hope it turns out to be a good one.